I can't remember the last time I read it!
I have put down my sword, and am unwilling to pick it up again!
I know I should read it, I know I should follow it,
I feel like my flame is dying and the thread is fraying.
Nothings changed on God's side of the relationship,
I've just given up the fight.
He still loves me, wants to help me, so why am I so unwilling to ask for His help?
I feel like a failure, I keep getting it wrong, I keep making mistakes, I stop trusting!
I hate my sin, I feel so engulfed by it, I want to withdraw from people.
I know I'm a being a bad example to my kids, and lacking motivation as a wife, I am not very useful in my church, my mouth doesn't spread the word, I'm an embarrassment to my God.
Why can't I stop sinning?!?!
Why am I up and down?!?!
Why can't my flame always burn for God?!?!
Why is it so hard to do the right thing and follow God, why do I still think I know best??!! And am then surprised when it turned out I was wrong again?!
I'm fed up with confessing the same sins again, again, God must be tired of hearing my pathetic apologises, knowing I will do the same thing again tomorrow!
I need to read my Bible, I need to shake the dust off and start again.....