This is us, in oct 2003 what seem like so long ago, just some distant memories, in a pub called the King John in Hartlepool. It was a special night in more than one way, not only was it Paula's birthday but its the night that changed my life forever, although I didn't know that at the time, until a few weeks later when I peed on a stick and it went blue!
Then 27months later I took this picture!The most wonderful thing that ever happened to me! Which God willing I am about to embark on again only this time it will be a new life, a new journey, my son.
Its amazing how this little thing can change you so much and until you have one of your own you can never imagine how much you can love one. I am a Nanny by profession and have loved the kids I have worked with, but nothing prepared me for the total shock having my own would bring. Its amazing how you can love someone that is so much hard work. Sleepless nights, endless nappies, sore breasts, labour! and everything else that goes with being a mum. Of course my favourite bit is all the snotty noses!
I am completely smitten and I don't care who knows it, my daughter is wonderful and I will love her forever.
This Christmas she should understand most of whats going on, so providing I don't go into labour early, this should be my best Christmas ever. Even though my Dad and my Nan wont be here to share it, I know that they live on through me, in my memories of them, and the silly things I say.(that they used to say) So Faith will know them and that puts a smile on my face.
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! I wish you all peace and happiness.