Wednesday, December 08, 2010

My Angel

We have recently been informed that there is a strong possible that our son has some form of ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). This had lead me to some really dark days although in one way it comes as a relief, now I will be the first to admit that I am not a perfect or even good parent, but I thought that I had done something really wrong either during my pregnancy or while he was growing up. I spent countless hours racking my brains trying to think what I had done so differently with him, why was he like this? why didn't my son know how to talk, why didn't he understand what I was asking him to do, why wouldn't he play with the others, and why was he so unsociable at playgroup?.

Part of me still is in denial and thinks he'll grow out of it, that I can some how fix it by interacting with him more, reading more stories, talking to him more or giving him a stricter routine.

Then part of me accepts him as he is and thanks God for His "good and perfect gift"

It's a roller-coaster of emotions at the moment!


Carrie said...

We rarely learn why God chooses us specifically to live with a condition that will undoubtedly make life different for us. But what is often very clear is that he places us with the perfect match in the family He chooses to support and guide us on that journey.
God chose you above everyone to take care of your precious angel because He knows that even with the difficult times, you will support him and teach him to love God and make the most of the plan God has set out for him....and for you

Lorna's Ark said...

You don't know how much I needed to hear that tonight x how cool that I wrote that so long ago but that you said what I needed to hear tonight! God is good! Thank you