Scan on Monday EEEEEEEEEEEEE

Hopefully I will be able to post a picture on Monday of Holden number three!! I have a scan at last to find out my dates.

For the last two days I have been able to eat and have been enjoying my food not throwing it back up!

This may all change! onem min I am fine but the next you know... It makes working really fun! You suddenly see Lorna leave her desk and not come back for a while... in fact we are so busy at the moment they proablby don't even notice I've left my desk, or that I've come back a little lighter.

We now need to find someone to convert our loft so if their is any one out there reading who can do this let me know!

We have room for another one but we need space for all the damm toys... I may have brought too many at christmas .... but in my defense I thought me and Paula would be in business now and that we could have transfered them all by now.. but the place we wanted has just been sold!!! Not impressed!!

I did whilst looking for a business property find a nice 5 bedroom house in Hart Village may have to look into upping our mortgage if we can't extend the loft...hmmmm...... not sure I wanna live in Hart thought has too many memories! Although I would be near my good friend Janet!

Anyway must get on with some work now

Laters

Spain

I finally got round to putting the pictures on the computer

WHAT am I gonna do!!!!!!!!!! ARGH

We have just found out that Holden number three is on the way!!!!

This is a most scarey as we were not expecting it!!

We will keep you posted

3 under 4's!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!

Faith is 3 a week today argh where has the time gone!

Four years!!

Yesterday was our fourth wedding anniversary. It somehow seems like we have been togeter longer, but some how like wow 4 years! So much has happened in four years! Four babies, seven deaths, house, mortgage, new experiences like putting up the monster of all tents!, camping as a famiy for the first time, and on wednesday I am going to Spain free with work can't wait 4 whole days away and lots of sleep!!! (it just me no kids!) So it'll be a big step for me first time away without me kids (as I write this Noah is hugging my arm!) Sob Sob.....
It is going to werid not haing them and waking up next to Jo Jo! Instead of getting a wake up cal at 5am from Noah or finding a little girl has snuck in, in the middle of the night and taken al of the middle of the bed up! (Jo and I are sharing, Paula is with the boss she will have to behave!).

I found out today I already have a Certifcate from my Open University course which is cool! and that I only have two years of my degree left I thought it was five!!!!!

We went out last night and when we came home I found that Claire, who was babysitting had done all my ironing!!! I was well chuffed, now I'm working I don't get time to do much around the house, Stu and I both chip in but it still mounts up. I even have the kids helping, never to young to tidy toys away!

Well thats enough boring stuff when I finally get round to putting my holiday photo's on the computer I will add some to this post! Camping was so much fun I forgotten how good it was! These are quiet random thoughts!



Chill out Noah

The most beauitful little girl in the world

Fun at Nanny's

The monster tent part one

The monster tent part two

DA DA DA DA DAH!!! 100 POSTS!

For my hundreth post I wish I had something wonderful to tell everyone but I really don't except I'm going to Spain FOC with work! Am looking forward to Aliante and no kids for fours days! I will post holiday pictures!

Also I'm going on holiday for two weeks at the end of this week can't wait haven't been on holiday since my honeymoon nearly four years ago!

I thought I'd include a little picture of my children!

One more to go....

One more post till the big 100, but for now you will have to listen to the rants of this century of posts.

No names here but they know who they are...

I have one friend who is being a spanner! I feel this friend needs to be more serious about things and silly people who are messing them about. I worry a lot about this person. I wuv them x.

I have another friend who I don't see any more why is this?? what has happened??? I miss you.

I have another friend, who was my bestest friend where did they go? it seems like a they are a different person now and I hardly know them anymore, yet I see this person everyday, this person used to be fun and want to do things together, now they don't. I'm sad come back friend, I miss you!

I feel that Lorna is back now!! I need all my minions to come back and worship me like they once did!

Come home little ones come home your master has returned!

Head still may explode!

My head is in no better state than my last writing!

but I have found this (nicked it off Paula!) to help me along!

My bestest friend Paula was recently a patient of the great University Hospital of Hartlepool aka the dump!

She was nearly dead!!!!!

She had no immune system, due to the drugs she takes for her arthritis, so she was quite ill although if you ask her she'll say "I'm fine".

I am glad she is out of hospital now! Even though she is complaining that my gifts weren't as good as Charlie's! and that she didn't even love me enough to keep my get well card!!! She's not getting that Puppy now!!!!!

Anyway enough boringness I am nearly at my 100 post which means I have way too much free time (yeah Right) or that I talk so much rubbish!!! (which is more likely!)

toodles

Head may explode at any moment!

Ever get the feeling that your head may explode at any moment? you know the one where you have 50 million things to do and you forget your own name, let alone remembering to pick your kids up from the child minder, rememeber to post your speeding fine etc

I finished my uni assignment at like 11:30 the day before it was due in and havent done my DHC homework for like a month!

I need a new head!

a new body!

and a new stress free life!

anyone now where they are let me and possibly Paula know where they are!!!!!!!!

Also and finally....

I had chips and gravy for tea tonight!!! and on friday as it was good friday and oxford rd was sold out of chips!!!! I had to make my own!!! mmmmmmmmm chips and gravy............

my babies!

Saw this and thought of you.....

You might be best friends one year, Pretty good friends the next year, Don't talk that often the next year, And don't want to talk at all the year after that. So, I just wanted to say, You are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Send this to all your friends, No matter how often you talk , Or how close you are, And send it to the person who sent it to you. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, And tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend, Someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, Just remember this text and take comfort in knowing Somebody out there cares about you....

PRISON BREAK YUMMINESS!!

This is Sucre Michaels cell mate! This is Lincoln Michaels Brother
This is Tweener the home boy we all feel sorry for!
This is Michael also known as Fish and hot stuff!!!

Should have included this yumminess in my previous post, but Wentworth is so hot he deserves his own post Wentworth xxx

copyright belongs to http://www.fox.com/prisonbreak/ and http://www.five.tv/programmes/prisonbreak/

CHIPS, GRAVY AND WENTWORTH!!!

Since moving to the north east I have discovered the joy of chips and gravy!!! and now I'm obsessed!!!!

I cant think of anything better than Wentworth Miller covered in chips and gravy!!!!!! mmmmm chips and gravy mmmmm Wentworth

He stars in Prison Break which is so FAB!!! and also I have discovered via your tube he's in Mariah Carey's "we belong together video". Which I'm sorry to inform her but he belongs to me!!!

Me and Jo Jo think he's worth doing!!! I know I shouldnt say that as a married woman but HE'S SO YUMMY!!!! Sorry Stu xxx

Mum in a million / Special people in my life

My Mum is like the best Mum in the world! I know that most people think that but my Mum really is. Throughout all the things she has been through she is still going strong.

I never want to be where she is today.... Motherless as I really don't think I could ever cope without her. I know I moved away to start a life up here, that was more through lack of choice down south and because I was in love. I know I chose to stay after things went bad, I had made good friends.

I think that's when I first suffered with depression.

Sat in that flat by myself day after day, with no money to go anywhere or do anything except pay the rent. I had no sofa to sit on for a while so I just got use to sitting in my bedroom, watching telly ALL DAY. Sad and upset that the person I had been with didn't want me anymore and that I couldn't believe it was over. Looking back now maybe I was a bit full on with him but I never meant to drive him away with my future planing as us women do, anyway, that's the past now!

But through it all was one really special person my Mum! I later had friends like Paula, Mike and Stuart to help me, but my Mum she was a real star. I rang her everyday and she told me it will be ok.

Then when my Grandma died and I was alone up here grieving she was at the end of a phone.

ENTER Paula with sweets, ice cream and wine yes sweetheart I haven't forgotten you! Neither has the guy at the checkouts!!

Again when my Dad killed himself she helped me talk things through even though she was struggling to cope with it herself.

Enter Stuart with his 1am wake up calls with sobbing Lorna. I love you, you know I know I don't say it as much as I should but I do. You are there for me even though you are crap at housework and make me feel crap sometimes, those bad times we have are forgotten when I remember all the things you do for me, all the hugs and kisses when I need them, and the times you are just you.

When my Nan died it was my turn to help my Mum, except when I was in A&E with Gallstone pain on the day of her funeral, I needed her to mind Faith.

She was there when Faith was born, mopping my brow, telling me to push!!!

She has always been there, working 6 jobs at a time 7 days a week to provide for us kids, standing by my brother when he was in prison, helping out my other brother when he screwed up and needed her. She's always put us first, she's always done her best for us, even now we are all grown up and married and have kids of our own....nearly Chris not long now yeah I'm so excited! She still helps us is therefore us.

And then last year when my Grandad died she forgave me after all the things I said and the way I acted. When I just couldn't cope with my family dying anymore and lost the plot completely.

So that's why I say she is the best Mum in the world cause she is!

I HATE WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so fed up with work! I love the girls I work with its just my boss except me to do 50,000.000 hours work in 25 hours a week! She made me write a to do list yesterday it was like 50 pages long!!! I'm only meant to be PART time!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHH I'm gonna have to quit, I don't see my kids hardly and have got them with a childminder something I said I'd never do!!!

But I don't wanna quit!!!! I like work just not the stress!!! Guess thats everyone!!!


Anyway its just a stop gap until our business takes off! Can't wait to be my own boss! YEAH!

Going now to look for premises

That was better!

Friday night had a hot date! No details in case my kids ever read this and are traumatised for life! However Faith learnt some new phases!!!!

Note to self ALWAYS make sure my kids are sleep before partaking in after dark pleasures! or learning to keep ones mouth shut!

WELL THAT SUCKED!!

Yesterday I was 28! I feel so old!

My birthday didn't start with breakfast in bed or even a lay in, I had no presents to open, no flowers, no special treats, no balloons, and no cake!

I had to buy my own cake and light my own candles and even start the singing of happy birthday!

But it was OK I had had my presents from the girls at work last week as we all went out and danced ourselves stupid except Paula the lightweight!!!

I wasn't expecting much but a lie in would have been nice.

Anyway went to get new lenses for my eyes, wondered around town and got some new underwear for my date that night!!!!

Got home after popping into work to say hi, (got nagged to go out drinking after my date) found my house was clean yeah, went to seaton with the kids and watched the sea which was nice.....then my date cancelled he was ill!!

Oh what now I thought its my birthday surely he can make the effort for day of the year!!!!??? sadly no!!! To ill to come out for dinner with his wife but can eat half a bar of MY BIRTHDAY CHOCOLATE!!!!!!

Why does he not learn it was the same last year and the year before that I ALWAYS make an effort to celebrate his birthday and make him feel special!!! WHY, WHY can't he just for once do it for me its only one day!!!

Anyway I went out to dinner and had fun!!!!!

This probably isn't a helpful to my marriage post, but you know when you just need to rant and no ones listening!!!

laters

MY LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!!

Finally we have got our grant money from the university so we can buy laptops! Stuart got his on friday and I'm waiting til my better version is in stock!!!!(stu couldnt wait!....for once I can its amazing.....who the hell am I and what have I done with lorna????)

anyway..... 15 more posts til I reach 100! I am not as bored as Paula she reache da 100 posts ages ago!

here are pictures of Noah's 1st bday as promised!

1st picture.. I like the look of that...2nd picture ohhh flames...3rd one where's the rum I mean cake gone....(Johney Depp style)

My baby's 1 and walking!

I haven't blogged for so long due to the vast amounts of working I have been doing, not only am I at college doing a DHC, I have just started my 3rd year of my uni degree ...which is hard work 8 assignments in 8 months! (last year I had 4 in the same time scale)...anyway as I was saying I am also working two jobs doing accounts something I never done before and am learning new skills all the time as well as the stress of getting yelled at by Paula who is my boss! Its very strange having your best friend as your boss!!!. Some times its cool as I get special treats other times it sucks cause she gives me crap jobs to do, but hey I signed up for this so I should stop moaning and be grateful I have a job!

By the way......

My baby is 1 and walking......

We had his first birthday on 11 Feb 07! and he started walking two days before hand!!! Now all I can sing is "aint no stopping him now...he's on the move" Sad I know but!!! he's my Boyz.

Well today being Valentines day is cool be married don't have to worry about not getting a card etc... I got a badge that I'm being forced to wear!!! Its says world's greatest lover on it!!! I feel slightly big headed!!

Also you can so tell I'm married I'm spending valentines with Paula at college....People really are gonna start to talk about us! We spend vast amounts of time together!!! The lasses at college are already thinking we are gay!!!

However it looks like Paula's fairy tale of being rescued from the parallel dimension world, by "the Handsome Man" is coming true bitach!!!!


will post pic's when I am at home!!!

OHHHHH THE CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!

I realy think Michelle is a genius! She has created a way for us all to remain lard arses for the rest of lives but remain truly happy!!!

Its the gift of the Chocolate Fountain, Oh heaven in a fountain!

I must get pictures!!!!!

Although after reading the instructions this morning putting your tongue in it and licking the flow is not how your meant to get the chocolate in your mouth, although me and Charlie had great fun doing it!!!

ALSO have discovered that you can pretty much coat anything and everything in chocolate inc creme eggs, marshmellows and crosants being my fav. But your finger is also good as is charlies lips, chest and my tongue!!!! all good ways to ingest chocolate!!!

MMMMMM will dream of your oh fountain of heaven til we met again!!!

bye for now I will miss you dear fountain of joy!!